“Now may the God of peace make you holy in every way, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless until our Lord Jesus Christ comes again. God will make this happen, for he who calls you is faithful” (1 Thessalonians 5).
“It seriously cannot be 5:00 am.”
I went to bed after midnight last night, and I found myself awake this morning way too early. I get worried sometimes because people in my extended family started having insomnia around age thirty. And I just turned thirty.
I tossed and turned for a little while, then decided to start my time with the Lord. I was hoping that I was up early because He wanted to meet with me in the early morning hours, to pour out His presence on me and talk to me for a while. I have felt so rushed and distracted in prayer this week - maybe this morning I could linger.
The moment I settled into my prayer chair with my coffee, I began to pour out my heart to the Lord about my children. This time, I didn’t hurry as I told God everything I have been feeling about my lack of consistency as a mom and my children’s behavior. Words continued to pour out of me, and I brought everything I was feeling before His throne.
There. Done. What a relief.
Speak, Lord. I am ready to hear what you would say to me.
I love pouring out my heart to God. I wish that every morning were a long time of prayer (although it makes it sweeter, I think, when it comes unexpectedly as a gift). I love telling Him everything I am feeling and then hearing the gentle voice of the Holy Spirit come in and start to instruct me.
Jess, you are afraid of failure with your children. Your lack of consistency is leading to a lack of delight. But you can change in this, daughter. It is a process. Begin today with them. I am with you…
Oh, His words. Like water over my thirsty, tired body. Filling me with understanding. Pouring over me with the peace that does pass all comprehension as I linger… linger.
In His Presence is fullness of joy.
Father, thank you for meeting with me. Thank you for wanting to talk with me. I am so in love with you.
Beautiful, my friend. Absolutely beautiful.